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greys anatomy [12 Feb 2006|11:01pm]
greys anatomy makes me think. and i dont know if thats a good things or not. im supposed to be asleep now. or at least i feel like i need to be. ive spent the last 4 hours crying. yes im pathetic. i texted messaged pamela. beacuse i didnt know what else to do and i was crying too hard to talk. i feel like a bomb has gone off inside my head and heart. i miss my mother more then anyone could ever imagine. more then i could even imagine. i really tried to ready myself for missing her. but i couldnt possibly have been ready for losing the only person who understood me. the guilt from losing her has turned into this horrible cancer spreading through my body. crying myself to sleep is now normal. pretending that everything is fine and putting a smile on. how many things are you supposed to regret in your life at 18? im sure i have more then im supposed to. there isnt a second that goes by that i dont regret sitting in my room infatuated with a boy who as is turns out will fall out of love with me and become my best friend. however i do not regret loving him. he is and will always be the best thing that happened in my life. but i sometimes wish i would have been watching movies and talking with my mother. i fear that ive become this numb girl that no one knows anymore. who would want to know me? i dont blame anyone for not sticking around to watch me crash and burn. at the end of the episode tonite there was a question, and the question was if it was your last nite to live what would you want to do. and i can honestly say i would love nothing more then to be loved by someone. anyone really. and to know it. and spend my time with pamela, jessica, monica, heather, and ashley. because those are the only girls i have left in my life. and i wouldnt be alive now without them.

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[27 Oct 2005|06:39pm]
so. whats new you ask? everything. i feel like ive outgrown landstown. offically. drama and football games have made me realize that. i feel like lately nothing phases me. ive lost 15 pounds in the last month and a half. whats my secret? being heartbroken. and lost. youd be surprised but hunger is the last thing on my mind. and no. its not all because of a boy. how ignorant do you have to be to realize that there are other things going on in my life, dont you dare pin everything on him. on the topic of him, hes the only one thats been there to listen to me, even at random hours of the nite when i feel like i cant take it anymore. i sit there and cry and he listens. he doesnt tell me its going to get better, because we both know that it wont. but i know hes going to be there when it gets worse. no we arent offically together, and no im not interested in getting to know someone else. dont bother asking me, im old enough to know what i want.

on a better note i love that ashley and i are getting to hang out. i missed her. i love going out with lindsey and laughing at nothing and driving her nuts. i love sharing the futon with tyler and watching desperate housewives. i love that halloween is soon and my whole family is here to show everyone how crazy we are. i love that doug is coming back, even though he'll prolly be too busy to hang out with me. i love seeing monica and pamela and realizing how stupid girls in highschool are. lol.

i havent seen mere or caitlin in a while. and i miss them. alot

so..dont try and make me happy. i dont want to be fake. and im not going to be anymore. sometimes i just want to stay home and do nothing. and other times i only want to talk to him. im sorry if you think its stupid but theres nothing you can say to change it. dont bother trying.

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[09 Sep 2005|04:27pm]
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2. Pass it on.
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[17 Aug 2005|11:16am]
What's your name? :: Jennifer Lynn Coburn
Birthplace :: jacksonville FL
Age :: 18
Age you act :: um? 18?
Current location :: va beach
Eye color :: brown
Hair color :: blonde like
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :: right
Zodiac sign? :: aries
Height? :: 4'10

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]

Your heritage/nationality :: white. and something else.
Your hair :: naturally dark dark dark brown
Your fears :: frogs. birds. bad table manners.
Your perfect room :: colorful. lots of pictures and my art
What you practically do in a day :: sit around. hang out with whoever.

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]

Words you overuse :: damn. sweet. otay.
Phrases you overuse :: faggy fag fag fag. or douchy douch
Your first thought when you wake up :: fuck work.
Your greatest accomplishment :: getting a 5 on my ap art exam
Something you want to do :: a new digi. camera

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]

Pepsi or Coke :: neither
McDonald's or Burger Kings :: neither
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :: ms. spears
Chocolate or vanilla :: vanilla
Adidas or Nike :: nike
Black or white :: white
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :: bills
Burgers or hot dogs :: hot dog
Egypt or France :: egypt
Rock or rap :: rock

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]

Smoke :: no
Cuss :: yeah
Sing well :: its possible
Sing in the shower :: yeah
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :: not a whole lot.
Believe in yourself :: yup
Like taking these longass surveys? :: yes
Play an instrument :: no
Want to go to college? :: i am
Want to get married? :: ya
Want to have children? :: maybe
Think you're a health freak? :: no
Get along with your parents :: yep
Get along with your siblings? :: yep
Think you're popular :: possibly. lol

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]

Gone out of state :: yep
Drank alchohal :: yep
Smoke :: no
Get high :: no
Done any drugs :: no
Eaten an entire box of oreos :: no
Been on stage :: no
Gone skinny dipping :: ya
Been dumped :: ya
Dyed your hair :: ya
Stolen anything :: ya

[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]

Craziest :: meredith
Loudest :: meredith
Most shy :: do i have shy friends? maybe tyler used to be. but not any more.
Blondest :: caitlin
Smartest :: brian
Kindest :: brett
Best personality :: linds
Most talented :: sams. that athlete
Best singer :: heather
Most ghetto :: lindsey? maybe haas with her booty dancin
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :: nelson
Pain in the ass :: my friends arent pains
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):: sometimes lindsey. but i love her.
Funniest :: snow
Best person for advice :: cait
Dependable :: cait
Trustworthy :: everyone
Druggie :: mere. lol
Most likely to end up in jail :: mere. lol
Person you've known the longest :: lindsey/ashley

[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]

Last dream :: last nite
Last nightmare :: i dunno
Car ride :: to work today
Last time you cried :: um. a week ago
Last movie seen :: the notebook
Last movie rented :: meet the fockers
Last book read :: when in rome
Last word said :: damnit
Last curse word said :: damnit
Last time you laugh :: with linds on sat.
Last phone call :: tyler
Last CD played :: fall out boy
Last song you listened to :: #2
Last annoyance :: being bored at work
Last IM :: heater
Last weird encounter :: those old black guys hitting on me and linds at the beach. eww
Last person you hugged :: michael leary
Last person you yelled at :: ?
Last time you wore a skirt :: yesteday
Last time you've been evil :: im never evil
Sarcastic? :: all the time
Last time you fought with your parents :: ?
Last time you wished upon a star :: yesterday
Played Truth or Dare :: yep
Spent quality time alone :: of course

[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]

Are you talking to someone on AIM ::no
Do you feel lonely :: ya
Ever TP'd someone's house :: no
How about egging someone's house :: no they were for easter eggs. lol
Do you not like dislike not like me? :: no i like brian
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :: fuck no
Yo Momma :: is funny
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :: no
What do you think of George Bush? :: bitch ass
Any secret fetishes? :: maybe but im not tellin you
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :: hahah no
How many languages do you speak? :: ii hate spanish
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :: no
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you =P)) :: hellll yaaaa

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warped tour [11 Aug 2005|09:00am]
well i figured i would write about warped tour while im at work. it was pretty awesome i must say.

went out monday nite with the girl and crashed at cait and meres house. then got up pretty early. 10:30ish and woke up the girls. got our stuff together and went to my house to get ready. lindsey met us there and me cait and linds proceeded up to landstown high school to park and meet up with " the crew" that was pretty much made up of randy dandy-jj-sara aubrey-sara coles-julienne-and randys little bro. so we walked to the amp. past all the crazy cars and the first thing we see through the gates are new zealand people selling cameras for 10$. lol. it was so funny. then we walked around for 10-15 mins. found the playlist or watever and wrote down who we wanted to see. then we headed over to one of the little stages to watch forever in a day. aka. FIAD. they rocked. so very very hard. im in love with the whole band. bought a shirt from them. it says " FIAD MAKES GIRLS SWEAT" and really they do. they are that damn hot. as we were watching fiad it started to rain. sprinkle really. so we got pretty wet pretty fast. which was cool cuz its hot out. after fiad we walked around some more untill MAE came on. met up with edwill and sean and the rest of the crew to see them. it was awesome to hear a few hundred people sing songs by guys that lived here. plus the lead singers grandparents were to the right of us. which pretty much made my day. lol. we visited the myspace tent. and the condom tent. some other tent to get a free energy drink. the truth.com tent. the new zealand peoples tent. and caitlin bought their cd. i saw pretty much everyone i know. saw hawthorne heights. me and lindsey stuck together for that one and went from being by mr. leary to some blockbuster guys to some other nice guy to wes. who totally saved us a few times from crazy crowdsurfers. at this point it was pouring outside my hair is dripping and water is running off of my shorts. we all take our hair down. brush it out. and try and rock the " sexy wet hair" look. i dunno if it worked tho. lol. i was totally excited for the starting line. they are my all time favorite and i refused to move when they came on. although i was completly smooshed against lindseys boobs. singing my heart out with her was the best part of the whole day. after that... we ate.beasted on some italian sausage. and a bottle of water. which cost us like 16$ got a few tee shirts. i got lindsey a hawthorne heights shirt and me a fall out boy tee and a starting line bag. along with a few sitckers and what not. everything we had was completly soaked. phones cameras and all. me and lindsey decided it wasnt worth putting our feet through hell so we took our shoes off. and just jumped in every puddle we could find. caitlin however decided that she wasnt going to walk through any mud and asked any hot guy she saw to carry her across it. and they all did. lol. might as well have fun if your already wet and dirty. right?! umm. what happened after that. lets see. we saw the offspring. the transplants. my chemical romance. fall out boy. atreyu? i cant spell. fall out boy was miserable. toooo many people in one place. i didnt last one song in the crowd and neither did linds or cait. i guess we are just too little for those hard core fall out boy fans. oh. durinig one of the shows lindsey got her lip busted open by a falling boy. it was pretty nasty but now she has a hardcore battle wound. so its all good. after fall out boy we left. sore and beat up. lol. intended on swimming at my house but we were all too tired. so we called it a nite. i got home and went straight to thee shower stripped off my wet stinky ass clothes and scrubbed myself like a crazy person. i have never felt so gross in my whole life. lol. went through the brusie count. 7 if you want to know. and a swollen ankle. from what. who knows. but it felt really nice to be DRY and WARM.

thats my whole long ass story. love you much if you actually read it all and comment.

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jennifer is... [03 Aug 2005|10:25am]
Type in "(your name) is" in google, quotations included. then copy and post your 10 favorite answers

1. Jennifer is not a criminal
2. Jennifer is Great
3. Little Jennifer is a genius
4. Jennifer is totally victimized
5. Jennifer is the only Jewish kid in the class.
6. Jennifer is unemployed and desperately looking for a job
7. Jennifer is married to a wonderful man
8. Jennifer is on the verge of a total breakthrough
9. Jennifer is a mindless beast
10.Jennifer is worthy of so much more

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at work with nothing better to do. [18 Jul 2005|09:54am]
A- Age: 18

B- Band you are listening to right now: rascal flatts

C- Crush: tyler scott

D- Dogs name: i dont have one

E- Easiest person to talk to: cait the great

F- Favorite ice cream(s): strawberry

G- Gummy worms or gummy bears? gummy worms

H- Hardest thing you ever had to do: smile when i wanted to cry

I- Instruments: guitars are pretty sweet

J- Junior high: landstown middle for 6th grade, then moved to NV and went to churchill county junior high

K- Kids: husband first

L- Longest car ride ever? to NV. 12 hrs a day for 8 days.

M- Most fun you have had: being out with the girls

N-Nicknames: jenny lenny, jenny poo

O- One wish: to live happily ever after

P- Phobia[s]: being alone, frogs, bad table manners

Q- Quote from a movie: " you get smarter the shorter you skirt gets"--empire records

R- Reason to smile: highschool is over

S- Song you sang last: " these days"

T- Time you woke up today: 6 am

U- Unknown fact about me: i have to have a picture in order to draw

V- Vegetable(s) you hate: peas!

W-Worst habit(s): over thinking

X- X-rays you've had: teeth, arm, ankle, back

Y- Your favorite people as of right now?: lindsey heather and caitlin

Z- Zodiac sign: aries

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like all the other cool kids [18 Jul 2005|08:52am]
i love my family but they are driving me insane
i love being home but theres always someone visiting
i love going out but i never get to
i love working but i hate being bored
i love new shoes but i hate blisters
i love caitlin but i never see her
i love linds and heather but i wish we spent more time together
i love tyler scott but he doesnt feel the same
i love being a girlfriend but i hate being clingy
i love my room but i have too many pictures
i love green tea but it makes me sick
i love having fun but i think i forgot how to
i love scrapbooking but i dont have the money to support my habbit
i love my 8.99 black and white camera but it didnt last long
i love my long hair but its so hot outside
i love my car but the AC doesnt work
i love the summer but i havent done anything summery

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my new best friend [01 Jun 2005|09:21am]

adopt your own virtual pet!

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[29 May 2005|11:32am]
01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. If I were to apply
an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
04. I will try to name a
single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable
moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about
08. Put this in your journal.

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[21 May 2005|05:30pm]
i just realized i havent updated this thing in months. so lets try and catch up. since i last updated...

- i went to the state gymnastics meet, which was fun and sad at the same time. my last one with the girls while being part of the team. amanda kicked ass as usual and alyssa let everyone down. as usual.
-valentines came and went, ty gave me a movie and it was super cute, i cried on his shoulder and then we made out.
-my birthday was pretty fun. linds adn mere werent here which was the only sucky part. ty was the only one that got me a present and they were gorgeoud flowers. GORGEOUS. went to dinner and that was the end of the birthday bash.
- had student gallery art show. where i once again placed. only as an honoree this time but i was one of two from landstown to get it. my art was then displayed in the contempary art center of virgina for a month and then i took it back and turned it in for my ap art portfolio
-talking about ap art that was the craziest thing ive ever done. created 24 pieces of brand new college quality pieces of art. took slides of them and then wrote a 3 sentence paragraph explaining everything i had done. CRAZY. took the ap art history exam too. also crazy. and not as hard as i thought. hopefully i wont fail too badly
- prom was fun. me jamie linds ty michael and anthony all went together and i loved being with them. went to dinner, or tried to when the stupid limo driver got lost. drank in the back of the limo thanks to anthony. got to the prom and danced my little butt off. tyler did dance me with too. the whole time which was surprising and awesome. after prom we all met up at anthonys hotel room where everyone left but me ty jamie and ant. just chilled for a while and watched a movie. then me and ty came back to my house for some one on one time. which is where ill stop.
- classes are pretty much over now. i dont do anything at school on B days. [ all my art classes are on b days] and on a days i just do stuff in gov't and english. but i slack off and still have an A in both. so yay for me
- me and ty are doing pretty good. he loves me and i love him. as in the real love not that stupid bullshit that everyone thinks they have. yes we fight ever so often but we laugh about it 5 mins later and then we're back to normal. which i think is pretty healthy for an 18-19 yr old couple. we cant get along about eveything right. lol.

anyways ill stop here. comment if u even read this. lol. later gators

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indzy & elbow love [03 Jan 2005|03:32am]
this break has changed ev-er-y thing

i dont know if its good or bad. good for me & tyler but possibly bad for anyone thats not tyler. i was such a friend junkie. i didnt want to do anything unless i was with lindsey. but now im not like that. maybe i've just grown up or maybe we've just grown apart but i havent seen her in 2 weeks. and thats weird considering we used to see each other almost every day. now we dont talk hardly ever. " shes busy" is the excuse i give myself for not calling. when we are around each other i feel stupid. like im not good enough to be there, im not old enough or mature enough for her anymore. but then i think to myself.. shes with mere all the time, how am i not good enough. its like im out of place with my own best friend. i no longer fit in because i have a boyfriend. maybe i shouldnt say anything, maybe i should just sit and wait and see what happens, or maybe i should just accept it.. and move on.

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christmas break [30 Dec 2004|08:24am]
lets see. got some pretty rad gifts. lots of green from tyler which is perfect. panties, A&F shirts, money, money, money, cds, money, dell dj[ that i love], and some more money.

day after christmas went shopping like usual. got the usual. dinner at olive gardens like usual. all in all it was a pretty routine day.

other then the usual ive been spending every extra second of my life attached to tyler scott. the other day i realized just how much he means to me and how i would be lost without him there. i couldnt imagine having him taken away from me for any reason. i really belive in the whole " theres someone for everyone" thing and i think he really is my someone. its pretty sad to think that im 17 and i dont go out anymore because i would much rather spend it in bed with my boyfriend. not doing bad teenager things, well not ALL the time, but just being next to him and being so close to falling asleep and knowing that nothing bad could possibly ruin that moment. he loves me for the way i am and that is fucking hard to find in a 18 year old college student. and you know it. lol. even though hes innocent, clean cut, and really really picky sometimes and only wears certain colors, i still adore him. dont know why..but i do. i mean .. not very many people can put up with a girl that buys silver shoes and spends 70$ on a purse. right?! so i consider myself pretty lucky to have him. yay for me? lol

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[10 Dec 2004|07:06pm]
At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter
Your school name
Your name
Your job will beWriter
You will be worth$354,133
Everyone will think youare really hot
Quiz created with MemeGen!

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[26 Nov 2004|07:37pm]
i am thankful for:

my loving boyfriend. who puts up with all my crazyness. supports me in everything i do regardless of how pissed off it makes him. spoils me when its not necessary and who is always there when i need him, even when he doesnt want to be. i am in no way a perfect girlfriend and yet he treats me like a complete princess at all times.

lindsey, meredith, and caitlin. the three girls that i love more then anything else in this world. without them i wouldnt know what to do with my life. well maybe i would. but it wouldnt be as random and fun as it is now.

the boys: randy, christian, the grigsbys, james, brett, JJ, josh, juls, heater, mark, ernie, and yes even derrek at times. they make life interesting and give me a reason to smile. and always look out for me and the other ladies. because.. well they are good guys no matter what anyone else says!

thanksgiving this year wasnt all that great. but looking back at this summer and remembering fun times made it perfect.

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[20 Oct 2004|11:10am]
livejournal is so dead. its kinda sad. myspace is the new livejournal. it seems like everyone and their mom has one. but let me get back to me.. cuz well thats whats really important..[not really]

school sucks. cristians house is my new house. im there every weekend. and yes i mean everyweekend. mere caitlin and linds are my whole life. im with them all the time now. and its awesome. i love those girls. and the guys too. randy JJ.. ect. me and tyler are FINALLY going out. and hes deff. not going anywhere anytime soon. i was a landstown hoochie at the homecoming game. painted the tummy with all the other lovely ladies. it was so fun. been going to all the volleyball games. cuz i love those girls/guys. jamie is awesome. my new lover. i cant belive i didnt like her at first. i must have been CRAZY! lol. but anyways. im in love and its great. but im sick so no kissing which really sucks. well im gunna go.. seeing that the only reason im updating is because im sick. so later kids

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[24 Sep 2004|06:25pm]

What The Hell Happened Last Night?
LJ Username
What did you drink?
You wake up in the morning next to: tomcakes
...who is wearing: nothing at all
...and rolls over to you to say: How the heck did you manage to sleep with those wrist cuffs on?
...and then: hugs you for ever and ever until you die
This fun quiz by joneccleston - Taken 107604 Times.
New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!

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[20 Sep 2004|02:54pm]
hmm. today. i sat with the flipapino kids. and dave. who is SO cute. just. awe. ya. then..i didnt really do anything the rest of the day. B days are so slack. i love it. but. ya heres some old school lyrics for ya. lindsey poooo

t close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where
Your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter
In the base of my spine
Sweet like a chic a cherry cola

I don’t need to try and explain
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again I might move
So slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face
Of the human cannonball
That I need to I want to

Come stand a little bit closer
Breath in and get a bit higher
You’ll never know what hit you
When I get to you


Ooh I want you
I don’t know if I need you
But ooh I’d die to find out
Ooh I want you
I don’t know if I need you
But ooh I’d die to find out

I’m the kind of person who endorses
A deep commitment
Getting comfy getting perfect
Is what I live for
But a look then a smell of perfume
It’s like I’m down on the floor
And I don’t know what I’m in for

Conversation has a time and place
In the interaction of a lover and
A mate
But the time of talking
Using symbols using words
Can be likened to a deep sea diver
Who is swimming with a raincoat

Come stand a little bit closer
Breathe in and get a bit higher
You’ll never know what hit you
When I get to you


Anytime I need to see your face
I just close my eyes
And I am taken to a place where
Your crystal mind and
Magenta feelings take up shelter
In the base of my spine
Sweet like a chic a cherry cola

I don’t need to try and explain
I just hold on tight
And if it happens again I might move
So slightly
To the arms and the lips and the face
Of the human cannonball
That I need to I want to


So can we find out

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im listening to savage garden. is that weird? [19 Sep 2004|01:44pm]
(x) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of your parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) stole something from my job
( ) celebrated New Years in Time Square
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) been to Europe
( ) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Africa
(x) slapped someone I loved
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
(x) met someone in person from the internet
( ) been moshing at a concert
( ) had real feelings for someone you knew only online
(x) been in an abusive relationship (mentally/physically)
(x) tried killing yourself
(X) taken painkillers
( ) in love with someone right now...
(x) miss someone right now
(x) had feelings for a friend and they never knew

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[11 Sep 2004|03:57pm]

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